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Some of the Psychology of Interdisciplinary Thinking, the Covid Pandemic, and Erectile Dysfunction (Sunday, July 26th, 2020)

Learning to Reach for the Northern Star and Toss the Anchor into the Sea It is one of those mornings when the mind struggles to focus, not so much as a symptom of Attention Deficit Disorder…though some people claim to believe A.D.D. is my fundamental ailment or struggle with my constant shifts on objects of […]

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Contemplating Sexual Desires With Compassion (Saturday, July 25th, 2020)

Oh…striving for competence! And along with that, a conscience…embrace of ethics/morality (and already I see two different directions this stream of thoughts could go: 1)) deep into the abstract forests of why we might suppose such a thing as ethics/morality exists or…ought to be recognized as a conducive standard to living out of ***respect*** for […]

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Sexual Orientation, Philosophy, & Evidence (Friday, July 24th, 2020)

The Role of Philosophy in Forming Certain Sexual Thoughts, Feelings, Desires, and Speculations One reason it’s so hard for some of us to think about and discuss sex openly and comfortably, I suspect (and I emphasize the word “suspect”; just like the cops identify someone as a suspect but can’t yet compile quite enough EVIDENCE […]

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How was I to deal with these thoughts and feelings I could not condemn or “reason” away with science? (Thursday, July 23rd, 2020)

1. Simply Being Aware of Thoughts, Feelings, and Desires Have you ever asked yourself (weird as this question may seem to some of you) “do I REALLY think what I THINK I think? Haha. By the way– does that make any sense to you?   More concretely (or at least as sort of concrete as […]

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My Grandmother’s Final Lesson, My Lies About Polyamory and Monogamy… (Wednesday, July 22nd, 2020)

The plot of last night’s nightmare revolved around my grandmother’s last few hours on a bed in the hospital. Similar to the view she appeared to hold and express the last time I saw her (in real life) and in fact the last year or maybe last few years, she did not fear dying and […]

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First Romantic Feelings, like Proust’s Pink Hawthorns; Tragic Death of a Babysitter (Tuesday, July 21, 2020)

Apparently, not this last night, but the night before I yelled in my sleep but neither Ashley nor I remembered what I yelled out. Usually when I yell in my sleep, it’s political.   (Do you ever get a bout of paranoia, particularly when you’re writing, whether an email or anything anyone else is going […]

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The Karate Kid Quits Karate To be a Movie Star, etc… (Monday, July 20, 2020)

I hope with storming intensity, as if (well, in my perhaps at times playfully hyperbolic micro- daydreams)..as if it were the Earth’s introduction to water… (In the Scientific American article written by  “Everyday Einstein Sabrina Stierwalt” on October 6, 2019—“How Did Water Get on Earth?” https://www.scientificamerican.com/article/how-did-water-get-on-earth the theory explored is that an asteroid or comet, […]

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Struggling to commit to a career…another one of my “phases”(Sunday, July 19th, 2020; 8:57 AM to 11:44 AM EDT)

I believe that one of my greatest strengths—a willingness to play the advocatus diaboli ( Latin for Devil’s Advocate) also is one my greatest weaknesses, making me vulnerable to abandoning, quitting on a proclaimed “dreams,” career aspirations, passions, long term career goals, potential fields of expertise; a handful of those close to me who also […]

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Daily Routines, Anxiety..(Saturday, July 18, 2020)

The question of how to establish the most sufficient daily routine, not as an inflexible absolute but at least as a reasonable set of guidelines for how to budget one’s time throughout a day, is one which has lingered in my mind for many years. When did I first start consciously experimenting with possible routine […]

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Best pathways, neural and other?– journal– Friday, July 17th, 2020

As you may see from yesterday’s post, for at least the time being, I’ve taken to a more focused and elaborate commitment to journaling, the most forceful and impactful inspiration being the neurologist Tara Swart and her book The Source.  (A book by the way that seems to me so crucial to read for its […]