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*SHOW ME THE MONEY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!* (Thursday, August 13th, 2020)

Well… I faced my fear yesterday and created my first “donation button” for this here diary blog of mine. Why did I fear it? As I verbalized it in a passage from a draft of the introduction essay I’m working on: “It’s difficult for me to say because I don’t think I’m ‘so special’ or […]

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A lot of marketing is manipulative bullshit! (“Sharing is caring”; “Let It Be”—sing it, Paul McCartney!) (Friday, July 31st, 2020)

Money can really fuck with one’s mind… worse than almost anything else except for maybe religious beliefs based on pure irrationality. As Bob Dylan sings in the song “It’s Alright Ma (I’m Only Bleeding)”: money doesn’t talk, it swearsObscenity, who really caresPropaganda, all is phony (How do I distinguish the notion of religion “based on […]

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A Glimpse Into How I Gave Myself Atychiphobia: ‘the abnormal, unwarranted, and persistent fear of failure’ (Wednesday, July 29th, 2020)

My therapist aptly noted how I rely at times far too much on other voices to inform my own. What do we mean by “voice” in this case? For let us please be clear that there’s a difference between self expression and that which, by virtue of constant empirical repetition, is as probable a fact […]

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Some of the Psychology of Interdisciplinary Thinking, the Covid Pandemic, and Erectile Dysfunction (Sunday, July 26th, 2020)

Learning to Reach for the Northern Star and Toss the Anchor into the Sea It is one of those mornings when the mind struggles to focus, not so much as a symptom of Attention Deficit Disorder…though some people claim to believe A.D.D. is my fundamental ailment or struggle with my constant shifts on objects of […]

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July 16th, 2020–my first entry in my new public/open online diary–which despite immense insecurity I found the nerve to write and share on this post

I would love to feel and think and act with less self-evisceration. Here is just one example. Yesterday I was thinking about journaling and then sharing the entry with you here on my blog however, I resisted because I feared that a stream-of-consciousness-ish approach to self-reflection, introspection, et cetera, that one would share… with “the […]